Imagine you have a meter to measure how you feel about your current relationship.
-5 = Into the mud scum queen!
+5 = Marital Bliss
I’m wavering at -2 right now. We had a good date Monday. As good as I could have imagined.
Short make-out session at the end of the date. She doesn’t seem to be into me like I expect. Probably all in my head.
I woke Tuesday thinking: “is this all there is?”
I am a rat bastard.
I’ve tried living this week back with the idea of staying married and keeping the pass. Not convinced.
This is beyond even the intimacy now. She has come back around and is as intimate as I think she can be. My issue is that it is not enough.
Tonight we watch TV. Hold hands. Snuggle on the couch. Talk. Listen to each other.