She gives me confidence and strength. We are great friends, and I love her. Outside the bedroom. My Wife.
We are in very different places sexually. Yesterday she booked a 2 hour massage for herself. She enjoyed that massage as much as I enjoy the non-massage sessions I schedule. She still thinks about sex. Fantasizes. She reads erotic fiction constantly. At least an hour or two a day. She also told me she still masturbates often. Will we ever get back to a place where we have sex with each other? Neither of us has been able to answer that one.
We should try another date. The last one seemed to go well enough. Although she was very uncomfortable with our make-out session in bed with our shirts off. I am very much physically attracted to her. She says she feels the same.
It has been like this between us for years. Up until I started seeing escorts, I was convinced the problem was all about me. Now I realize that was not true.
It is about US.